Thursday, September 10, 2009


Do we move on to IVF once we get the money settled or go for adoption first?

Could I handle another loss after all of the hassle of IVF?

Why would we even consider trying to get pregnant again after so many losses?

Why am I afraid Aunt Flo will show up this weekend?

Why am I afraid she won't?

Why do I care so much?

Why do I turn into a jealous, sobbing mess every time someone else announces a pregnancy?

Why do I see preggos EVERYWHERE?

Why do I feel like the last kid picked on the schoolyard?

When does it get to be our turn?

Why can't I appreciate what I DO have?

Why is this my life?


  1. I feel the same about seeing preggos everywhere...they seem to have multiplied. (((HUGS)))

  2. I could have written that breaks my heart everytime AF clomes or I hear that someone else got pregnant especially when they just starting trying.

    Me personally, I would do IVF. I have this desire to have my own biological child (I know I would love an adopted child just the same) but I want our baby to be half me and half G. If IVF didn't work, I would then adopt.

    P.S. I would have picked you first at school! :)

  3. I have been through all these. (no advice on the IVF vs adoption thing because the financials in the US are so different).

    The only reason we went down the IVF route (as you know very similar situation to yours) was my doc at the time recommended that as the best course of action if we were going to be on a heavy drug protocol, including clexane and prednisone. I think it really depends on what your dr is offering you as support to prevent loss.

    Now, I didn't agree that we needed to do IVF but he was the so-called RPL NK specialist, and I went with it to get that prednisone treatment - and take the random element out. He was very reluctant to put me on it and cycle naturally (preferred option).

    Contrast with my new doctor, who has a totally different approach. Given that you CAN conceive, I would have a serious talk with your RE about what options are available to you to prevent loss, and whether you can continue trying naturally, before pursuing IVF. Just weigh up the options, is what I guess I am trying to say.

    Hope this helps.

  4. It is so, so difficult. I hope that you can find a good way forward. Many good wishes to you.