Friday, July 8, 2011

what doesn't kill us.....

... I truly hope makes us stronger.

I am sorry to have left you all in the dark for so long, but there have been major happenings in my life lately..... and no, I'm not pregnant. I probably never will be again.

You see, on Thursday I will be moving into my own place.

I no longer love my husband, and realized that I've been staying for the sole purpose of trying to conceive. That isn't fair to anyone. There is more to the story - way more - that I will be sharing in the coming days. I just haven't figured out how to write about it yet.

Perhaps my utesaurus has been a blessing in disguise because as difficult as this situation has been, a child would make it infinitely more complicated.

Bear with me, internetz. I don't know if this is the right place to write about my new life. I'm thinking of leaving this blog up for the semi-fertile masses and starting a new one, but I'm not sure. The only thing I am sure of is that leaving is the right move, for both of us.

Love to you all.

18 comments:

  1. I am so sorry to hear that, I am hope you find happiness in your decision. I can imagine it would take a lot of courage and strength to make such a move and I wish you the best.

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  2. I'm so sorry for the pain you're going through. I'm in a similar boat right now. I wish you the best and again, am very sorry.

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  3. I'm so sorry. It sounds like you are making the right choice, and I wish you all the best as you move forward on this new path.

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  4. I'm so sorry to hear that you are going through this, and I hope that you find happiness and peace in this decision. I wish you the best in your transition.

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  5. You have gone through so much already, so sorry to hear that there is more change and turmoil to come. But it is good that you are at peace and feel right about the choice. Best of luck to you! Keep posting on this blog, we don't mind, it is your blog, so what if it is not about conception anymore, it is still about you and your life.

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  6. I'm always here if you need me. I deactivated my Facebook, so let me know if you need my number again and I'll email you. Love ya!

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  7. Thinking of you and wishing you strength and peace on your journey.

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  8. Hugs, and love, coming your way.

    Jo

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  9. Thinking of you. I've been wondering how things have been with you...what a difficult journey. Sending you lots of hugs and peace as you start this new chapter. xo

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  10. I'm so sorry and I hope the changes lead to a happier phase in your life.

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  11. You're in my thoughts...I'm so sorry that you're going through this. I hope that taking these difficult steps allows you to start to heal.

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  12. I was also wondering how you were doing. I'm so sorry to hear about what you're going through. Regardless of whether it's "the right thing for everyone," I'm sure it still won't be easy. I'll be thinking of you.

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  13. Aww I'm so sorry to hear this. Sending lots of love and hugs your way.

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  14. cheryllookingforwardJuly 11, 2011 at 9:15 AM

    I've been thinking of you recently and hoping you were doing well. I'm sorry this isn't a cheerful update, but I hope this new chapter in your life will bring you peace. I'll continue to send you warm thoughts. Best of luck.

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  15. Sounds like you are be true, honest, courageous. Sending good vibes your way.

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  16. I am so sorry that you are suffering through this. Making the decision to end a marraige is a hard one, but it sounds as if you are at peace that it was the right decision to make. I hope that the coming changes in your life will bring you continued peace. I hate that IF and it's struggles have caused so many people that I "know" problems in their marraige. Any underlying strains are that much more apparent when the IF struggles are added on.

    As far as where your blog should go - suffering from RPL is a part of you - even if you don't have a spouse to be trying with any more. Others that I have known have still suffered from IF flashbacks even after the divorce and having their blogs was a nice way to find solace.

    The blogosphere can be whatever you want it to be. I will still read and follow you, should you choose to contiue to write about your journey, regardless of the path it takes you.

    My thoughts are with you.

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  17. I'm a little late to the game, but I do know first hand what pressure IF can put on a marriage. I hope you will keep posting.

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  18. I'm very late to the game as I kinda dropped off the face of the blogging world.
    I'm sorry to hear that and I hope you are happy now in this new chapter of your life.

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