Thursday, January 21, 2010

Welcome, ICLWers

My story, in brief: Stopped birth control June 2005. First pregnancy December 2005. First miscarriage January 2006. Since then, I have been pregnant six more times, all ending in miscarriage, except for my ectopic baby (referred to here as Cletus, as in Cletus the Fetus. He is the only one with a name because he was the only one we got to see even once on ultrasound. And he was in the wrong f-ing place). I have been diagnosed with a blood clotting disorder, but treatment for that has not thus far helped me to stay pregnant. I have just taken my last month of Clomid and am unsure what our next steps will be regarding ttc.
I get acupuncture, exercise a lot, eat organic and gluten free, cry a lot, laugh when I can, love on my dogs and cats, adore my hubby, read like a fiend, harbor dreams of actually finishing that novel I started writing, bandy sarcasm about like a weapon, dress like a femme fatale when I can so that I feel womanly despite my faulty parts, avoid pregnant women like the plague, and try not to wallow in self pity all of the time. That's me in a nutshell. (That was quite a sentence. Whew.) Thanks for visiting - please, leave a comment and introduce yourself. I love meeting new bloggers.

Side note: my internet service has been spotty at best due to weather issues (Iowa! In January!) so my commenting might be sporadic today. Please don't hate me :)


  1. Me: 32, After years of denying that I wanted children I changed my mind and was then diagnosed with PCOS (figures), artist, wedding photographer, kitten lover, procrastinator, sugar addict, and Macy's clearance rack shopper, to name a few things about me.

    Thank you for sharing your story!

  2. I'm so sorry for your losses. We suffered our first (and only) loss in December and it has been devastating. I can't imagine 6.

    Your description was great! Best of luck to you.

    the subfertile frugalista

  3. Thanks for coming over to my blog via ICLW. We are organic fans too. I give it credit with getting my hormones back on track on ovulating on my own for a year! Where are you in IA? We lived in Omaha for 5 years and LOVED LOVED winter. Not so much a good locale for snow here in west Texas!

  4. Hi there,
    You have had a really tough time; no one would deny that. I'm assuming that your miscarriages have been unexplained, which is really frustrating. You have shown great hope, determination and resilience in becoming pregnant 7 times in 4 years. If you ever want to talk "live," I am trained in miscarriage support and have free calling to the United States (from the UK). Email me if you want me to phone you & give me a good time to call:
    (ICLW #44)

  5. Hello there!
    I'm similarly semi/sub/sorta/sickly fertile. 3 miscarriages in 1 year. Not really sure about the next step as we have yet to decide what barage of tests we'll take before trying again. i'll be rootin' for you and ur next cycle! see ya round the blog!