Once again, a friend (M) has had a baby.
Once again, I am in a tailspin.
I'm sitting here at work, overhearing snippets of conversation from the back. Baby talk, like women do.
I fucking hate it.
This typing is my attempt to look too busy to join in the conversation.
My mind wanders. Will we ever have that moment? Will I ever get to melt as I watch my dear sweet hubby meet his child? Will I ever bring joy into my loved ones' lives, rather than sadness?
I'm sorry. My heart goes out to you. It's a terrible feeling and I know it all to well unfortunately. I wish I had the answer for you. My hope is that you will enjoy that beautiful moment one day.
ReplyDeleteoh man i so get where you're at. i'm really sorry that you're going through this. i wish there was something i could say to make you feel better. i really hope that you have those moments too. hugs...
ReplyDeleteWill we ever have that moment? Will I ever get to melt as I watch my dear sweet hubby meet his child? Will I ever bring joy into my loved ones' lives, rather than sadness?
ReplyDelete-I could have spoken these words myself. (((HUGS)))
I know exactly how you feel.
ReplyDeleteI got an email from my mom today and she actually sounded pissed that I didn't tell her I was pregnant and that I did a voice mail/email combination to let her know that I wasn't anymore.
What fucking nerve of her to be pissed at me!
(I'll have to post the whole story on my blog, it's pretty ridiculous.)
I'm so sorry you had to endure that. Many times I have been in that situation. What on earth can I say to join in? Absolutely nothing.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you - big hug.
Sweetie, I am so sorry that you have to go through this and feel like you are constantly the sadness-bringer. I don't have the answer to your question but I wish I could give it to you. All I can offer is my support and lots of (((HUGS))), I hope that you are feeling better soon, too.
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