Monday, April 12, 2010

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Once again, a friend (M) has had a baby.

Once again, I am in a tailspin.

I'm sitting here at work, overhearing snippets of conversation from the back. Baby talk, like women do.

I fucking hate it.

This typing is my attempt to look too busy to join in the conversation.

My mind wanders. Will we ever have that moment? Will I ever get to melt as I watch my dear sweet hubby meet his child? Will I ever bring joy into my loved ones' lives, rather than sadness?

6 comments:

  1. I'm sorry. My heart goes out to you. It's a terrible feeling and I know it all to well unfortunately. I wish I had the answer for you. My hope is that you will enjoy that beautiful moment one day.

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  2. oh man i so get where you're at. i'm really sorry that you're going through this. i wish there was something i could say to make you feel better. i really hope that you have those moments too. hugs...

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  3. Will we ever have that moment? Will I ever get to melt as I watch my dear sweet hubby meet his child? Will I ever bring joy into my loved ones' lives, rather than sadness?

    -I could have spoken these words myself. (((HUGS)))

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  4. I know exactly how you feel.

    I got an email from my mom today and she actually sounded pissed that I didn't tell her I was pregnant and that I did a voice mail/email combination to let her know that I wasn't anymore.

    What fucking nerve of her to be pissed at me!
    (I'll have to post the whole story on my blog, it's pretty ridiculous.)

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  5. I'm so sorry you had to endure that. Many times I have been in that situation. What on earth can I say to join in? Absolutely nothing.

    Thinking of you - big hug.

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  6. Sweetie, I am so sorry that you have to go through this and feel like you are constantly the sadness-bringer. I don't have the answer to your question but I wish I could give it to you. All I can offer is my support and lots of (((HUGS))), I hope that you are feeling better soon, too.

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