So, I'm still here.
Remember how I said I can change my mind regarding the whole adoption vs. IVF conundrum?
Well, Hubby and I have started couples counseling and individual therapy, mostly to prepare us for our adoption journey.
Only Dr. A, our therapist, thinks that we should forget adoption right now and move towards IVF. She thinks I won't be able to move on with my life if I don't at least try it. I think she's right, but I'm still trying to wrap my head around all that that means. I've also started taking anti anxiety medication, because she's helped me realize that I am really really clinically depressed and that I need to address it, and that most of my depression stems from anxiety.
I'm sorry that I haven't been commenting. You all mean so much to me and I feel terrible about it but I've been spending a lot of time working on myself these days. I've been starting to read blogs again, though, which is good.
I'm making lemonade, I am.