Wednesday, July 21, 2010

ICLW - welcome!

Hi there! Thanks for visiting! I love the feeling of community that ICLW brings, and I'm looking forward to finding some new blogs this month (and hopefully some new readers too!)

If you're new to the world of semi-fertile, read on - a brief recap of my long and tumultuous ttc journey follows.


I met my Hubby in January 2003. We got engaged two weeks later, and married in June 2003. I went off of birth control pills in June 2005, got pregnant in December 2005, and promptly miscarried in January 2006. Pregnancy number 2 occured a few months later, which also ended quickly. Two more early miscarriages occurred over the next few years, during which I endured every RPL test known to man. I did test positive for antiphospholipid antibodies (a clotting disorder) and was prescribed aspirin, a mega dose of folic acid, and injectable Lovenox (an anticoagulant) upon confirmation of pregnancy. My fifth pregnancy, in December 2008, was devastating, as it seemed to be normal until the ultrasound - and then, an ectopic was diagnosed. I had surgery to remove cletus the fetus from my tube - poor cletus, who was actually growing on schedule and looked good aside from his location. My seventh pregnancy, in the fall of 2009, ended in early miscarriage as well. Further testing revealed a high level of prolactin, which has been corrected with medication. And despite 6 cycles with femara, we have not conceived since (although I am currently in the 2ww from the last femara cycle, but not exactly hopeful).

Since the demise of cletus, I have been deeply depressed. I am working on getting myself well and healthy while we take a break to save for IVF. We may do a couple of IUIs in the meantime.

So there you have it - my utesaurus eats babies, and it makes me sad. I still try to laugh, though, and I am determined to kick depression's ass before I move on to beating the shit out of RPL.

20 comments:

  1. Just one swing. I just want ONE swing. RPL can kiss my ass!

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  2. wow! a whirlwind romance! that's awesome! =) when you know it, you know it! =)
    Can I get a swing at RPL too?

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  3. I'm sorry you had to have so many miscarriages... I had one 5 weeks ago and it was the hardest thing to go through, I don't know how you survived so many... ICLW 146

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  4. I am so sorry for all that you've been through. I think depression and RPL definitely deserve to get the crap beat out of them. Good luck with all of it. ICLW

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  5. Wow...that's quite a story. It's nice to meet you :) After a few failed IUIs we're moving on to IVF. I'm terrified.

    Robin
    http://lookingformykeys.blogspot.com

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  6. not a new reader but still reading and checking in on you all the time. i'm looking forward to continuing to read about all your ass kicking. its going to be epic, i just know it.

    hugs

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  7. Hello from ICLW!!

    Wow, what a whirlwind romance with your husband!!

    You have had such a long hard journey, you truly are an amazing women to be able to continually get back up and kiss the asses of Depression and RPL!!

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  8. Here from ICLW - I am so sorry about all of your losses. I can't even imagine what it feels like to go through so much.
    Beth #148

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  9. The whole thing just sucks. F*&%ing RPL. When you hunt that bitch down and kick her ass I am so right there lending my fist. It sucks to the highest degree.
    Always thinking about you!!! Hope this cycle is the one.

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  10. I'm so sorry! It sounds like you've had a really rough time, but I admire you for not giving up. I, too, struggle with RPL and this last one was really difficult for me, b/c we had seen and heard the heartbeat and everything. I'm also a Lovenox user.

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  11. Thanks for the recap! I'm new to your blog. I recently had my 4th miscarriage. Just today my husband & I went to Memphis for an appointment with a RPL specialist. I'm so sorry for all that you've gone through.

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  12. I'm so sorry for all that you've been through. I lost two pregnancies this year (the second ectoptic) and have struggled with some mild depression since. Would love to kick some depression and some RPL ass!

    Best of luck to you as you move forward with IUIs and possibly IVF!! <3

    ICLW

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  13. I am so incredibly sorry for your loss and all you have been through. It just isn't fair that anyone should have to experience this once, let alone repeatedly. I recently lost my first and only pregnancy after IVF and am now in 1st cycle of FET. Your determination is inspiring and I wish you all the best on your journey <3

    ICLW #101

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  14. I don't even know what to say. The losses you've endured seem unimaginable to me, although I've had several of my own. But 7? Where do you find the strength? You're still upbeat and funny here -- which I find amazing. I'm totally adding you to my reader. :-)

    I hope that soon they can figure out what's causing all of this to happen. I find it interesting that you had elevated prolactin -- did they indicate that in any of your miscarriages? I was diagnosed with the same thing early in our TTC journey, but no one seemed concerned.

    I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you and sending lots of sticky vibes into the Universe. It really IS your turn!

    Hugs,
    Jo

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  15. Here for ICLW. What a crappy time you've had of it! I love the fact that you are still able to find humor in it all and keep the hope. Here's to a BFP for you soon!

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  16. My heart breaks for you and all your losses. That's just devastating, but your positive attitude and humor is uplifting! I hope your break is exactly what you need to get that BFP that sticks! Happy ICLW! (#45 & 46)

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  17. This is what I love about you so much. You can still be so funny even though it's such a miserable situation.

    When you find RPL let me know and I'll hold it's arms while you punch the crap out of it! :)

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  18. Thank you all so much for the wonderful comments!

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  19. I'm so sorry about all of your misfortunes. I hope you can get happy and stick in there. :-) Best wishes to you!

    ICLW #50

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  20. Such similar stories. Guvnor and I got engaged within 2 weeks of dating, n married within 11 months of meeting, we've been together 11 years and married for 10 this November.

    I'm so sorry for all your losses, we've had 8 miscarriages, they never get any easier to handle or deal with.

    ICLW
    #41
    http://www.themissruby.blogspot.com/
    ~ttc for 11 years
    ~8 miscarriages
    ~still chasing that elusive viable bubba

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