Monday, July 26, 2010

schooled

If I even thought for a second I might have been pregnant, I got schooled yesterday.

Aunt Flo showed up with a vengeance. I was crippled all day, physically. And I am mentally drained.

This was it, our last chance before we start dropping serious money on the problem (which we don't, at the moment, have).

I've gotten pregnant seven times. Seven. And I couldn't conceive once on femara.

And all around me, in blogosphere and on fb and in real life, people keep getting knocked up and having babies. I feel more left behind than ever, more alone than usual.

At least I have my (everything that isn't reproductive) health. I'll drink to that.

And then tomorrow, I'll start taking that fucking pill.

9 comments:

  1. (((HUGS))). Thinking of you.

    Jo

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  2. Wifey- I'm not sure femara is all it's cracked up to be either. I'm a 7 time loser too, but couldn't conceive with femara.

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  3. I'm so sorry. Please let us know if the medication helps. Sending hugs.

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  4. ((hugs)) So sorry... but I really hope the pill helps

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  5. Sorry you're feeling left behind. Infertility just sucks and I'm sorry it has hit you hard.

    Thanks for visiting my blog!

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  6. I'm sorry :( I hope the pill helps.

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  7. I'm so sorry. :( Thinking of you.

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  8. that's the worst

    and its amazing, isnt it, how hope just keeps springing up.

    sorry :(

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  9. This really, really sucks. I hate that AF was such a bitch to you. Yeah, it's good you still have your health but you do have a right to feel down. ((HUGS))

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