Wednesday, October 6, 2010

white flag

Okay, universe.

It seems you're pretty determined to keep me miserable.

I'm tired of fighting it, of trying to pursue happiness.

Nothing has worked - acupuncture, change of diet, herbs, anti-anxiety meds, anti-depressants, therapy, exercise. I even gave up on the idea of conceiving without medical intervention.

So I surrender. I accept it. Misery is my path. You win.
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16 comments:

  1. LisaOctober 6, 2010 at 8:34 AM

    my hearting is breaking for you. i wish there was something i could say or do to make this less traumatic for you ... but i know there's not. you are in my thoughts, wifey.

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  2. KellyOctober 6, 2010 at 2:37 PM

    Oh I know this feeling all too well. I'm so sorry that you're hurting. So, so sorry that this had to happen to you, again. You deserve to be happy. This is all so unfair.

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  3. RobinOctober 6, 2010 at 5:48 PM

    Oh, crap. I'm behind on my reading. I just saw your news. Sorry there is nothing inspirational I can say..

    ((hugs))

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  4. BrownirisOctober 6, 2010 at 6:27 PM

    I just read your recent posts, and I am so, SO sorry. I can't imagine how much this hurts, and my heart is truly breaking for you.

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  5. CarliOctober 6, 2010 at 8:45 PM

    I am so, so sorry. I know you are completely bummed and I can't say I blame you.

    My thoughts are with you and I will be saying prayers for you.

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  6. ShandreaOctober 7, 2010 at 6:05 PM

    I wish i had the words to make all the pain dissapear, to make everything turn out differently, but I don't. All i can do is offer ((HUGS)) I wish i could be where you are just to hug you to sit and listen as you scream out all of your frustrations. I am so so sorry that this has happened to you once again. I hope that you oneday soon find happiness again.

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  7. cdgOctober 7, 2010 at 10:01 PM

    here from lfca
    I am so very sorry for both of your losses. There are no words. Just know that I am thinking of you and sending love your way.

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  8. rebeccaOctober 7, 2010 at 10:24 PM

    Stopping by from LFCA to offer some support & love. I'm so sorry for your losses, it so incredibly unfair you're facing so much all at once. Thinking of you & hoping that good things start to come your way & you feel the support of many surrounding you during these dark days.

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  9. IllanareOctober 8, 2010 at 3:00 AM

    Here from LFCA. I am so very sorry for your losses. Thinking of you and wishing you peace.

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  10. ~stinkb0mb~October 8, 2010 at 4:40 AM

    I too know this feeling only too well, I also have a womb of death.

    Sending you big hugs

    xxxx

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  11. RoccieOctober 8, 2010 at 10:04 AM

    I am so very sorry for your loss.

    I cannot begin to understand why this happens.

    Your house must feel horribly quiet and this breaks my heart too. Please take care of yourself and remember we are thinking about you.

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  12. areyoukiddingmeOctober 8, 2010 at 11:41 AM

    I'm so sorry for all of your losses...

    Here from LFCA

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  13. MisfitsOctober 8, 2010 at 3:22 PM

    I am positively stunned for your loss. My heart is with you and you are in my thoughts.

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  14. Just meOctober 8, 2010 at 4:36 PM

    Last September, I lost my pregnancy and my dog in the same week. Each in itself is so difficult, but together... I was numb- I couldn't imagine having to take any more loss.

    I'm so sorry you are going through this. Hugs to you.

    LFCA

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  15. JemOctober 9, 2010 at 5:03 PM

    Well, sucky-poo (I won't say "I'm sorry" bcs I hate hearing that).

    Surrender is a good next step. As if we had any control to being with.

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  16. AnotherDreamerOctober 10, 2010 at 8:17 PM

    (*HUGS*) Here from LFCA- I am so sorry for your losses. When losses occur with other losses, it adds another cut to everything. I am so sorry you're going through this. You're in my thoughts.

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