Wednesday, November 17, 2010

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is it strange to read your own archives, and cry as you relive your own heartbreak, and realize that despite all of your proclamations and efforts and all of those goddamned drugs you are still in the same. fucking. place you were when you started your blog almost two years ago?

I sure hope not.

13 comments:

  1. Seriously....it is so damn frustrating. It amazes me the heartache we endure and what we put our bodies through! Something has got to give!

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  2. Nope. I can't revisit mine. Not the early stuff.

    ((HUGS))

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  3. It's not strange at all. I hate that you're hurting so bad and I can't make it better, but the reality is it never goes away. (((HUGS)))

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  4. make it 5 years and I'm so with you I could puke. I hear ya, wanna share a box of tissues and a couple of family sized blacks of chocolate?

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  5. Yes I really do understand because it is 4.5 years now and it's like we have just started all over again - having finally found a good doctor and the right meds. We should have been in this place at least two years ago.

    Big hug to you.

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  6. I've done this a few times. It's not pretty. (((HUGS)))

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  7. I've done that a few times too. I'm sorry for your pain, but rest assured you are not alone. I hope ICLW gives you a boost. Blog on, sister!

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  8. I am right there with you. But then I go back and read comments and am reminded about all of the amazing women on the same path. Some of us just seem to be on the long and winding path.

    ICLW

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  9. RPL is so devastating. Hugs for the rough days.
    Take care fingers are crosed it al goes well.

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  10. I've done this too. All I want is a happy ending, for both of us!

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  11. I do the same thing. *hugs*
    ICLW

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  12. Here from FOLFOH. Your voice is very moving and very powerful. Thank you for sharing your story.

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  13. Read your story on FOLFOH and wanted to come by and say hello and share some love. I wish you all the best in your journey to momming a living babe. ~ Missy

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