Sunday, October 11, 2009

this is not a frakking hallmark moment.....

or, the post in which I announce that I am pregnant for the seventh time.

And that, just after I saw the word "pregnant" pop up on the digital screen, I wiped and came up with pink toilet paper. The morning urine giveth, the morning urine taketh away.

I know better than to hope, but I do. I hope. And I am happy, although it is a happiness tempered by fear, by doubt, by experience. But I am pregnant - today anyway - and today, I will enjoy it.

If this little bean sticks around - please, please, a million times please - my due date will pretty much be our seventh anniversary. The seventh pregnancy - please don't take this one too, universe. I have paid my dues, and then some.

And for all of my talk about not believing in god, I find myself praying to something, someone, the universe. I guess I'm in my own particular foxhole now.


Oh, and the topper? Hubby leaves tomorrow for a week halfway across the country. I will be alone if/when I find out that my betas aren't rising. I may need some serious handholding this week, ladies.

10 comments:

  1. Congrats sweetheart! Please stick little one. Please help heal your mommy's heart and give your parents the best anniversary gift ever!

    I'm here for you no matter what. I will be holding your hand through this and if you need anything, I mean anything-email me at paramore05@ymail.com

    babyparamore.blogspot.com

    You have an award on my blog!

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  2. i have everything crossed for you! sending you all of the the stickiest baby dust in the universe! my virtual hand is here. hugs.

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  3. Congrats hon! I'm praying that this little one sticks for you and that you finally get to become a Mumma to a living breathing baby. Wouldn't it be so very fabulous if you were to have this little one on your 7th wedding anniversary.

    xxxx

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  4. We'll be here. You deserve this. (hugs)

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  5. stick, stick, stick, stick. i will just keep repeating that for you. sending you good thoughts.

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  6. Congratulations on your positive and so many good wishes for a sticky, healthy bean! We'll be here with you this week and every week. Take care.

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  7. Sending you some love... and another hand to hold. Congratulations!

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  8. Can you feel my hand? It's squeezing yours very tightly. I'm sending you and your precious baby lots of support and good wishes. Hang in there, both of you. Hugs, hugs, hugs.

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  9. CONGRATS! Fingers crossed and lots of good thoughts for you and that precious bean. Stick, baby, stick!! :)

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  10. Oh... congrats to you! I'll pray right along with you that this one sticks!!!

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